Thursday, May 22, 2008

Inmate#: 0277968L

Warning: This poem is rated Mature and may contain material unsuitable for readers under 18.

Inmate#: 0277968L

 I have 2 boys…
Who run towards the commencement of the noise
That shakes the floor amongst their toys
Where Mommy & Daddy scream real loud
My youngest he can’t pronounce
words like his big brother’s mouth
But his tear-filled eyes understand
that this is not a good thing
For two who vowed to share wedding rings
Amongst other things…
He says “He loves me” and I no longer feel the same
I scream his name and plead for his life
To please not do this in our children’s sight
Thinking that he just might
Hear my plight
And let me take our children away from here
His second worst fear
I shudder with rage as he comes near
It’s clear
Today’s date the granite shall display
He vows to dig my grave
if I take his kids away
My eyes reveal and convey
that Love has departed and Death has taken its place
We’ve been together for 7 years
And I knew this man up until this here
This –
That rocked my world and tilted its axis
I never asked for this –
This got me fucked up in the brain
This my eyes reveal with tearful pain
This my God is so hard to explain
I loved this man so much
the shock was just insane
When I heard him utter a familiar name
Making squeaky sounds upon our bed frame
My eyes revealed their secret shame
Caught by surprise
As he tried to deny
Him giving another man oral affection
in front of my eyes
Blinded by his deception and lies
Our shared worst fear realized…
I faded to black and awoke
to their ended lives…
I have 2 boys
Whose lives have been destroyed
Parental null and void
For my boys
my sincerest regret
My incarcerated Life…
for Daddy’s death
Tara S. Gause aka Poetic Goddess Tara Shenéa
© 2008. All Rights Reserved.

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