FEARful LOVE

FEARful LOVE

I want to love you LOVE…I really do

I’ve heard so many good things about you
I heard from GLOOM and SO-BLUE
they raved about the power you exude,
the wonder of you…
How you made them smile just by being you
I heard it from TRUTH’s girl
that you knocked HATE out
in front of the WORLD
And everybody say
he’s like Debo
around their way
Well, that is what they say
I am so impressed
how you uniquely bless
How you hooked up HOPE with BROKEN-HEART
How that gave him a brand new start
And now they’re moving up the street
into the House of LOVE
I want to love you so much
In fact,
You’re all I’m thinking of
Ask your sisters JOY and GLADNESS
Everybody wants you – You’re the baddest!

You are LOVE

And, I want to love you LOVE…I really do
I want to be with you, and only you
Blind and all,
You are beautifully euphoric and pristine
And you can introduce me to PEACE,
CONFIDENCE and SELF-ESTEEM
I heard they’re in the company you keep
Which makes me think
About a rumor going around in the streets
That you sometimes chill with HURT and PAIN
My best chick INTUITION told me I may need to refrain
Cuz its known that they and their team can be real shady
Which you can see makes me reluctant in being your lady
So I hope this isn’t true
For I only want to be with you
The world renowned LOVE
Who has the power to brighten
or darken days
Many curious ways
The one who makes my heartbeat unstable on cue
Oh, the wonder of what you can do
I want to love you LOVE…I really do –

But I am FEAR…

Tara S. Gause aka Poetic Goddess Tara Shenéa
© 2008. All Rights Reserved.

In-Love's Departure

In-Love’s Departure

Today, I in-loved someone who didn’t in-love me back…
For years, I’d read him and became fluent in Love-Braille
But at this moment, with clay-smeared eyes

I washed in the pool of Siloam
And I saw it today –
As reality meteors rained and crashed from the sky around me
My matrixal globe cracked down the center of my rupturing heart
This world of in-love had finally succumb to the

elements of his deceitful eyes
and the fragrant stench of his selfish lustful soul
I will always remember today…
This hour, this minute, this second - the very moment

I stopped in-loving him

Tara S. Gause aka Poetic Goddess Tara Shenéa
© 2008. All Rights Reserved.

The S.S. Inspiration

The S.S. Inspiration

This beautiful maiden trapped upon a desolate isle
Perched atop a cliff reflecting on this gift and watching
and waiting for my cargo ship the - S.S. Inspiration
It’s my only salvation that Soul Speak inspiration
Got me waiting…and waiting…
Concentrating…
As I watch the sea with glee no trace I see
But I feel it’s there
Behind the glare of the Sun
We are apart yet we are one
As I stand, I am grand, pen in hand
As I write across the sky and
command the wind to increase
and the Heavens to cry and release
Upon the Earth and give birth
to lyrical sustenance to sustain my poetic thirst
A writer’s curse
The worse
Got me waiting…and waiting…
Concentrating…
As I watch the sea with glee no trace I see
But I just know it’s there
Beyond the furthest wave
I S.O.S. upon the shore’s page
This vessel of peace I fervently seek
Set adrift the sea of Me
Soul Speak has my coordinates and can only retrieve and free
Can only release…
I’m ready to go
I’m ready to flow
Rhythmically in rhyme
Emphatically in prose
Speak once again via my reticent soul
To express and prevail
I’m yearning to poetically exhale
I’m waiting to make bail from this sandy jail
This writer’s Hell!
I…
I…
I think I see the sail…

Tara S. Gause aka Poetic Goddess Tara Shenéa
© 2008. All Rights Reserved.

Inmate#: 0277968L

Warning: This poem is rated Mature and may contain material unsuitable for readers under 18.

Inmate#: 0277968L

 I have 2 boys…
Who run towards the commencement of the noise
That shakes the floor amongst their toys
Where Mommy & Daddy scream real loud
My youngest he can’t pronounce
words like his big brother’s mouth
But his tear-filled eyes understand
that this is not a good thing
For two who vowed to share wedding rings
Amongst other things…
He says “He loves me” and I no longer feel the same
I scream his name and plead for his life
To please not do this in our children’s sight
Thinking that he just might
Hear my plight
And let me take our children away from here
His second worst fear
I shudder with rage as he comes near
It’s clear
Today’s date the granite shall display
He vows to dig my grave
if I take his kids away
My eyes reveal and convey
that Love has departed and Death has taken its place
We’ve been together for 7 years
And I knew this man up until this here
This –
That rocked my world and tilted its axis
I never asked for this –
This got me fucked up in the brain
This my eyes reveal with tearful pain
This my God is so hard to explain
I loved this man so much
the shock was just insane
When I heard him utter a familiar name
Making squeaky sounds upon our bed frame
My eyes revealed their secret shame
Caught by surprise
As he tried to deny
Him giving another man oral affection
in front of my eyes
Blinded by his deception and lies
Our shared worst fear realized…
I faded to black and awoke
to their ended lives…
I have 2 boys
Whose lives have been destroyed
Parental null and void
For my boys
my sincerest regret
My incarcerated Life…
for Daddy’s death

Tara S. Gause aka Poetic Goddess Tara Shenéa

© 2008. All Rights Reserved.

CELIBACY - An Acrostic Poem

CELIBACY

Controlling every stimulating urge to

Enact upon my innate desire to lust after the flesh

Living faithfully in sexual abstinence by

Incorporating prayer daily to strengthen my spiritual intercessory

Being firm-minded around persuasive visual temptation

Abstaining from all erogenous gratification by being

Chaste and courageous in mind, body and soul as I encounter wiles

Yet virtuous by example in being pleasant in spirit and demeanor

Tara S. Gause aka Poetic Goddess Tara Shenéa

© 2008. All Rights Reserved.